Hearmycrys.

En route to alton towers with siany pie! Eeeeeeeeeeeee

All i want to do is smile, without putting a silly fake one on and telling everyone i’m ok when i’m fucking crying my heart out inside.

Went to sleep at 4, woke up at 8, i’m so tired i’ve had 12 hours sleep since friday. starting to ache not good, but on a brighter note i’m eating ok now can keep stuff down, and i havent cried alot. Why do boys have to be heartbreakers :( just miss him so much.

i’m really struggling with the breakup, i spent all day with friend’s i laughed and smiled with them but inside i was really hurting and one of my old friends said they liked me which did not help at all had no idea what to say, can’t be doing with rebounds someone always ends up getting hurt. I sent my ex a really horrible text and deleted his number i know for a fact he wont text back i don’t want him too, hes been so cold and horrible to me telling me to “get over it” “fuck off” but i found that he had another facebook which i didnt even know about with one friend on it which was a girl his age. i mean what the hell?! he created this facebook account when we were together too. Just makes me wonder? what the hell has he done what he’s not admitted to, all the nights he left me on my own for a “call out” was he seeing another girl? so in every right i had every right to send him a nasty text because even though we arent together anymore the guy should atleast be nice for once.

Feel so good when someone sends me a text saying “morning beautiful” this has made my day.

Woke up this morning and felt so much better. Hope this lasts x